Monumental Mistake?

As i live and live, i think i am unable to differentiate between Want and Need!. I understand the very meaning of both literally however deep, but the matter of the fact is not knowing the words and its entities but of understanding the nature and utilizing them, pragmatic. But the fact is the problem-the problem of what want is?and what need is?. what are they actually?. My unorthodox brain will say exactly what dictionary says and the actual confusion begins when my influential, crazy heart says something very different. How i wish we have only brain and not heart. Its worst then defining LOVE. I mean we can express love in words if we could or if we want but wants and needs is not about expression i believe; may be its about giving and receiving (exactly-'may be')., because there is loss coming when we mistake want for a need and vice-verse. The worst is again, that you can't tell me what i want and what i need, you could convince me though- you see crazy heart!, which eventually could be a mistake; and regrets?, I imagine not. I understand, i NEED food for my survival, so i ate! but i WANT to eat more-more than i need it-that is what my heart says and funny that my heart doesn't listen to my wannabe scientist brain or whatever;and ME?, i listen to my heart because somebody said, "Listen to your heart"!. So, I ate again and what-else?, overeating?.
Now, this is just a small, funny, already available mistake which is not a horrendous but lots are coming and more to live-by Gods grace ofcourse. I don't want to live a life with regrets no matter how big or small, there is no ratings in making mistakes (Imagine 3 out of 10 for your mistake!), foolish. If i am a lonely dweller, dwelling in this confusion, i must have to do something for myself profoundly-check myself. But, as i go i think have just one back- up option-Make people happy!. I don't want standing ovation for my mistake that could be a monumental for a life long regrets. What else could i do? other than making others happy because, as for now i have no other option and I am not a 'Bad Guy'.

First Dawn

Interesting, last time it was raining spontaneous here in Kohima-actually it does very often here, I weren’t that happy but sluggish and life seemed stagnant with just the opposite of what rain does naturally.

Rain?

It’s a cliché for us.

But today there was something of an experience that was beyond being old and wise and just the converse of other rainy days that sends me to unexplained exasperation-an experience of unmatched value for an old life that benchmarks for a new beginning of understanding nature and impressing it for a change. All for us.

Raining like any other days it was and who knows I wanted to feel the water so much; stepping out the door, suddenly the fresh droplets splashing my face with such impress that I felt ‘This Rain’ was for me.

Drenched in the rain, the breezy wind clenching my skin, refreshing me with new thoughts why I have missed the beauty then?. This new creation of thoughts made me happy all of a sudden that will definitely endorse my life to a new sense of triumph feeling in the futuristic time; and given that this rain will come again another day! This is my First Dawn. I have nothing to give but all to take.

Bind To Memory

Beneath my own thoughts,

Lay my own memories,

That rests my life.

So intense, that it halts my world.

Where do I rest my ravished heart?

Perpetual Motion

Of all, time seems to flow at unimaginable rate, yet our life animates slowly to our surprise. Everyone seems hectic everyday trying to figure out why everyone is so busy. I must say survival and competition has become our role rather than a role for us.

There’s nothing in our life here on earth, other than people-us and we.

We are living for one another, agree or not; not necessarily so but yes we are. It’s a chain reaction credited by unfathomable circumstances that defines our Life after all.

People, people more people;

Life, life more lives;

Yet slow.

This journey of life seems harsh and rude for some and gentle for others-we are all but different.

Some has all the gifts to enjoy luxury; some to produce that luxury; some to take care of; some the gift to love; some to suffer and so on; but what we need at all is the gift of endurance, to endure everything good or worse. We understand we are all different with different gifts-wish we found these gifts.

More to live more to endure.  Am not sure if we all have this gift but surely we all can learn.